Alprazolamized...

I distinctly remember that day of 1986 when I had an option to choose either to become a doctor or to become an engineer and my fascination for computers influenced me to what I am today. But my thirst and quest for medicine has never died out not just out of curiosity to learn more but purely because of the need... Just for example, since last couple of days, I have been spending lots of time in reading and understanding about Alprazolam...

Of course, I am not chemist that I would know anything about these carbon rings or 3D molecule structure or I can even explain the composition of Alprazolam. But the fact that it can influence the brain so much has made me so excited to learn about it. I believe that in past few days, I have gathered enough information about this drug... The reason? Very simple - I am taking this drug these days and its really acting on me.
Since last two mornings, I wake up at 10:30am - 2 hours late than my scheduled wake up time... I don't feel like doing anything all the day and whenever I get a chance, I go back to sleep... This afternoon, after brunch, instead of going to office, I came upstairs in my room and again went to sleep till 4pm. In between, phone calls made me awake and some email reminders forced me to look at my laptop screens few times... Even though I have tonnes of work to do, I just don't feel like doing anything. Even in office, I did nothing except few phone calls here and there and chitchatting with fellow friends...

Even now, though I have few phone calls to make, I am no enthusiastic about it at all... Instead of 5mg, I am trying 2mg Alprazolam tonight and see how it makes me feel tomorrow... Surprisingly, Cefuroxime or Dicloxacin have not upset my stomach and Rabeprazole has kept my acid reflux in control. I still take DynaPar - Diclofenac Sodium + Paracetamol for my tooth surgery and Rabeprazole is doing great for this analgesic too.

Oh, talking about drugs reminded me about Dr A...

I wanted to appreciate Dr A for participating in a social service voluntarily. Its very self satisfying when you help others and especially to the needy ones... You feel an inner happiness and that inner happiness drives you further for more such services... You get a feeing of achieving something when you help those deprived ones... You see gratitude in their eyes and that gratitude make us humble... We thrive to remain humble because that humbleness also brings happiness within... When you extend your selfless help to the needy one, you are overpowering your own evil instincts and that feel of freedom just needs to be experienced... it can never be explained...

Its 15 mins to midnight and 15 mins back, I had a dose of Alprazolam... My eyes are getting heavy and before I have to pore coffee drops in my eyes to keep them open, I better EOB now...